I read an article today written by someone whose mom committed suicide and how Mother’s day just isn’t the same without her. In my heart I felt a sting. Because that’s one of my biggest fears- how my suicide would impact my children. My mental health has quietly been declining and yet I can’t seem … Read more

Illness is hard

I try to be positive on my site, but I’m going to vent for a moment. I’m more stable now then I have been in many years. An accurate diagnosis can be a glorious thing. But, with that hunt for an accurate diagnosis came more medication changes and trials/ errors than I can even remember. … Read more

Dear Reader

Dear Reader, My name is Lindsay Alyson Ensor. There are a few things I need you to know about me. I am a real, live person. A real person with a real life. I am a mom, wife, sister, and friend. I am also a writer, speaker, and advocate for what I believe in. I … Read more

My Mission

If I look like a fool to millions but help one, then it is all worth it.   I think it’s super easy right now to get caught up in the emotion, the frustration and the inner thoughts we all have of what is happening around us. But please, don’t forget to focus on YOUR … Read more

It is well with my soul

I have accepted my lot. Though my lot feels like too much to bear. My faith is plenty, but I sleep without rest. For I am so weary and tired. Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be made sight. Please, Lord. HASTE. Make it soon. My heart is bleeding, yearning, longing for Home. … Read more

Crushing Heartache

Learning the hard way right now to put my faith into action. God’s got a plan. My children, are just on loan to me until that plan is fulfilled. Whether it’s now or years down the road, we have no choice but to cling to that. Mason has been in the hospital, diagnoses added, questions … Read more

Journal 12/25/16

As 2016 comes to a close, I can’t help but reflect upon the things on the year that now lies behind us. I faced mental illness, physical illness, illnesses and diagnoses of my children. I questioned and doubted my faith. I begged my own heart to stop beating, while deep inside wanting to be rescued … Read more