Crushing Heartache

Learning the hard way right now to put my faith into action. God’s got a plan. My children, are just on loan to me until that plan is fulfilled. Whether it’s now or years down the road, we have no choice but to cling to that. Mason has been in the hospital, diagnoses added, questions … Read more

Journal 12/25/16

As 2016 comes to a close, I can’t help but reflect upon the things on the year that now lies behind us. I faced mental illness, physical illness, illnesses and diagnoses of my children. I questioned and doubted my faith. I begged my own heart to stop beating, while deep inside wanting to be rescued … Read more

Let them see my cape

We all fight battles. I fight anxiety, depression, bipolar and more. Some days I’m happy and loving and warm. Other days I’m distant, detached and cold. My children are now old enough to verbalize that they notice when mommy is “mean” or “grumpy”. That breaks my heart. They know mommy wrote a book about how … Read more

Book Review

This month, my book was reviewed on While they usually only review and promote books on eating disorders, they chose mine because of the topics surrounding co-occurring illnesses that I cover. This came from their newsletter: Books, Book Reviews and Other Educational Resources: BOOK REVIEW: The Girl Inside: Silent No More By Lindsay Ensor: Shame and … Read more

Untitled Poem

***This is not authored by me*** Sexual assault in America is climbing to an all time high. If you have been affected, or are in danger, please contact someone. There are references at the end of this post. This poem was first published on Glasnost. When I was six years old, I gave my first blowjob. … Read more