Healing and Surviving

Living a transparent life to Advocate Awareness about Mental Illnesses

It is well with my soul

I have accepted my lot. Though my lot feels like too much to bear. My faith is plenty, but I sleep without rest. For I am so weary and tired. Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be made sight. Please, Lord. HASTE. Make it soon. My heart is bleeding, yearning, longing for Home. […]

Crushing Heartache

Learning the hard way right now to put my faith into action. God’s got a plan. My children, are just on loan to me until that plan is fulfilled. Whether it’s now or years down the road, we have no choice but to cling to that. Mason has been in the hospital, diagnoses added, questions […]

Journal 12/25/16

As 2016 comes to a close, I can’t help but reflect upon the things on the year that now lies behind us. I faced mental illness, physical illness, illnesses and diagnoses of my children. I questioned and doubted my faith. I begged my own heart to stop beating, while deep inside wanting to be rescued […]

Depression Roller Coaster

For 5 days now, I’ve spent 85% of the day in bed, getting up when only I absolutely had to. Tuesday’s therapy session was rough, but I managed to come away from it and sit down to write for a long while about the positive and negative things that came out of that session. Overall, […]

When Suicide Feels Like The Only Answer

  Why do I want to die?   At first, I began answering the question with bad memories and haunting thoughts:   Because when I close my eyes I still felt the hands of a child molester crawling over my skin. Because the only thing I learned in elementary school was that a heart could be broken and no one […]

Let them see my cape

We all fight battles. I fight anxiety, depression, bipolar and more. Some days I’m happy and loving and warm. Other days I’m distant, detached and cold. My children are now old enough to verbalize that they notice when mommy is “mean” or “grumpy”. That breaks my heart. They know mommy wrote a book about how […]

Book Review

This month, my book was reviewed on EDReferral.com. While they usually only review and promote books on eating disorders, they chose mine because of the topics surrounding co-occurring illnesses that I cover. This came from their newsletter: Books, Book Reviews and Other Educational Resources: BOOK REVIEW: The Girl Inside: Silent No More By Lindsay Ensor: Shame and […]

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